That was before

I performed the introduction,
and stepped back to avoid
the collision of hearts
that instantly followed.

(But was not supposed to happen.)

The stages blurred
due to their speed:
acquaintances, friends,
lover and beloved, then we.

But I remained and looked on.

For three years he was mine alone.
For what?
Coffee, innocuous conversation, laughs
over inconsequential things.

But no talk of love (mine for him), now faded.

She thinks she knows
my deepest wish,
thinks I would slip
my hand into his in the dark.

That was before…

…I introduced them
…he chose her
…I fell too deep.

25 Responses to “That was before”

  1. I wanna cry :(

  2. nice nice!!!!! i can totally feel you!!!

  3. awwwwwwwwwwwww
    Sweetheart. This was so lovely. Keep it up and if it is autobiographical, you get a HUGE hug from me. XOXO

  4. sigh..awful feeling.

  5. This is beautiful. I feel you.

  6. aaargh…that feeling!

  7. awwww!

  8. gosh…how unfair….luv it tho!

  9. I love it. Simple but meaningful.

  10. I totally know what this feels like.

  11. Love Conundrum…bittersweet!

  12. awww….. sometimes the overly good guy/girl loses out.. But what the heck! As Amy said in Little women
    “You don’t need scores of suitors. You need only one… if he’s the right one”.

  13. awww…wow! this love thing is just something else. Nice write up xx

  14. Where does one start to talk…

    Better things are coming your way, that was before…

  15. nicely written, love is complicated at times. The guy is a weirdo for not falling hard for you…urs is coming and the best for you.

  16. Very nicely written…makes me sad sorta…*sighs*

  17. Oh my…so sad. I think one of the hardest things for our hearts to take is to love and not be loved back in the same way or intensity.

    But that was before eh, there’s love waiting for you just around the next bend!

  18. Had to read this twice to get it… it’s deep

  19. Poetry now? You’re so Smart! and i’m soooo jealous…one person with too many creative talents! gosh!

    Well written sha…and i say that just because….

    (how u dey dear?)

  20. Wow…….tres deep.

    I mean, it’s like watching someone you love love someone else………….Now I’ve got goose bumps.

  21. ►niceguy
    Aww, it’s not that dire! Sorry it makes you feel bad :(

    ►jabez
    What a compliment, coming from you!

    ►Temite
    Thanks for the hug. The poem, exactly as it’s written is not autobiographical, though there are many elements of truth.

    ►taynement
    You’re right that it’s not pleasant!

    ►Sexkitten
    Thank you.

    ►Pink-Satin
    I feel you.

    ►naijagirl
    :)

    ►Toluwa
    Thank you. Life isn’t always fair (according to our definition of fair), is it?

    ►Ms O
    Thanks a bunch!

    ►omo oba
    I’m sorry you’ve had to experience it. It’s not pleasant.

    ►THIRTY+
    Yes, bittersweet is the word for it. We thank God for time and its healing effect on situations like that.

    ►Danny Bagucci
    That saying is so true! I fully believe it, and I’d add to it that you don’t want someone who doesn’t want you back. That’s a recipe for disaster.

    ►wordmerchant
    Thank you :)

    ►Rita
    Amen, and we thank God that better things are coming!

    ►YNC
    Thanks lady. There is always room for improvement though, and I know that I am growing and improving to be the best person I can be for the RIGHT person.

    ►Writefreak
    Thanks my dear! Don’t be sad.

    ►Enkay
    You’re right! And writing about feelings is such a cathartic activity.

    ►Dabizniz
    Thanks a bunch. I hope people see the strength at the end.

    ►sassiechic
    I love poetry, and the challenge that comes with picking the right words to convey your feeling or the feeling you’re trying to invoke.

    (I dey my dia! I miss you!)

    ►~Sirius~
    Thanks for your comment, I’m glad it spoke to you.

  22. This, my poetic friend, is simply nice.

  23. This is very nice, gives me mixed feelings
    I can relate to it
    beautiful

  24. ►tobenna
    Thank you!

    ►Olufunke
    It’s always nice to know that someone else has felt the same way…mixed feelings is right!

    Thank you for your comment.

  25. the best things come tothose who wait…

175X100
175X100

Naija Bloggers Award NOMINEE