That was before

I performed the introduction,
and stepped back to avoid
the collision of hearts
that instantly followed.

(But was not supposed to happen.)

The stages blurred
due to their speed:
acquaintances, friends,
lover and beloved, then we.

But I remained and looked on.

For three years he was mine alone.
For what?
Coffee, innocuous conversation, laughs
over inconsequential things.

But no talk of love (mine for him), now faded.

She thinks she knows
my deepest wish,
thinks I would slip
my hand into his in the dark.

That was before…

…I introduced them
…he chose her
…I fell too deep.

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25 thoughts on “That was before

  1. awwwwwwwwwwwww

    Sweetheart. This was so lovely. Keep it up and if it is autobiographical, you get a HUGE hug from me. XOXO

  2. awww….. sometimes the overly good guy/girl loses out.. But what the heck! As Amy said in Little women

    "You don't need scores of suitors. You need only one… if he's the right one".

  3. nicely written, love is complicated at times. The guy is a weirdo for not falling hard for you…urs is coming and the best for you.

  4. Oh my…so sad. I think one of the hardest things for our hearts to take is to love and not be loved back in the same way or intensity.

    But that was before eh, there's love waiting for you just around the next bend!

  5. Poetry now? You're so Smart! and i'm soooo jealous…one person with too many creative talents! gosh!

    Well written sha…and i say that just because….

    (how u dey dear?)

  6. Wow…….tres deep.

    I mean, it's like watching someone you love love someone else………….Now I've got goose bumps.

  7. â–ºniceguy

    Aww, it's not that dire! Sorry it makes you feel bad :(

    â–ºjabez

    What a compliment, coming from you!

    â–ºTemite

    Thanks for the hug. The poem, exactly as it's written is not autobiographical, though there are many elements of truth.

    â–ºtaynement

    You're right that it's not pleasant!

    â–ºSexkitten

    Thank you.

    â–ºPink-Satin

    I feel you.

    â–ºnaijagirl

    :)

    â–ºToluwa

    Thank you. Life isn't always fair (according to our definition of fair), is it?

    â–ºMs O

    Thanks a bunch!

    â–ºomo oba

    I'm sorry you've had to experience it. It's not pleasant.

    â–ºTHIRTY+

    Yes, bittersweet is the word for it. We thank God for time and its healing effect on situations like that.

    â–ºDanny Bagucci

    That saying is so true! I fully believe it, and I'd add to it that you don't want someone who doesn't want you back. That's a recipe for disaster.

    â–ºwordmerchant

    Thank you :)

    â–ºRita

    Amen, and we thank God that better things are coming!

    â–ºYNC

    Thanks lady. There is always room for improvement though, and I know that I am growing and improving to be the best person I can be for the RIGHT person.

    â–ºWritefreak

    Thanks my dear! Don't be sad.

    â–ºEnkay

    You're right! And writing about feelings is such a cathartic activity.

    â–ºDabizniz

    Thanks a bunch. I hope people see the strength at the end.

    â–ºsassiechic

    I love poetry, and the challenge that comes with picking the right words to convey your feeling or the feeling you're trying to invoke.

    (I dey my dia! I miss you!)

    â–º~Sirius~

    Thanks for your comment, I'm glad it spoke to you.

  8. â–ºtobenna

    Thank you!

    â–ºOlufunke

    It's always nice to know that someone else has felt the same way…mixed feelings is right!

    Thank you for your comment.

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